Della Grace Volcano Best Photos: My Blue Mascara Male | Art and design

I In 1995, I shot this scene in a home studio in Highbury Hill, London. At that point I was in a liminal state by gender. I was moving from being perceived as female to being perceived as male, but I agreed that I was born into sex.

I did not switch I was not interested in moving from one anchor point to another. The space in between has always been a lot more interesting to me. However, this period felt like a turning point, revealing the ambiguity of the castle that always existed. I felt it needed documentation.

Throughout my life, I was afraid that I was not properly recognized as a woman by ordinary people and my lesbian community. Because of that fear, I pulled out the hair that grew on my chin. As soon as the character stood out, I pulled it out with tweezers. But I took part in the Drag Kings competition at the National Movie Theater and I thought it was a good time to accept my body because my partner at that time was closer to masculinity than my femininity.

I went to Italy for a month and let my beard grow for the first time. Intensely liberated. I felt like making a contract with myself. When I came back to London I kept it. This picture is important because it is ambiguous. Play with masculinity while posing with a beard, but the blue mascara on the facial hair and the makeup on the face still soften the shot. I felt accurate and honest about at what point in my life.

My portfolio is at the heart of my work: it's how I understand, react, and approach my differences. I was born with interstellar variation and developed asymmetrically at puberty. For example, one chest was much larger than the other.

For many years I hid it. I hid what made me different, handled years of abuse because it looks a bit different, a bit fat and doesn't follow. My mother was beautiful and gorgeous fashion model and I did not capture her. I've destroyed almost every photo that survived from that time because of the disgusting feeling.

Self portfolio was a way for others to see me when I saw me. It was not a narcissistic project. I didn't want to be more beautiful or attractive than others. But it was an attempt to restore the self and values ​​that had been taken from me for years.

I have taken and photographed many pictures of my life, and many of them show me images that are absolutely destructive. My portfolio took a stance for myself and for people like me different from the standard. Because I'm the most topic of my job, but not pure. When people talk about self-portraits or confessions, they often have a significant advantage, as if they had self-indulgence or problems.

But I think the real question is why do you make yourself the subject of your art and what your goals are. Should I be indemnified? Do I need to pay attention? Because I have already gained a lot, I hope others like me understand that their differences are valuable, lonely, proud, unscrupulous, and do not need to follow.

Self-portraits have become popular among women, queer and minorities over time, from the last century Claude Cahun to today's Zanele Muholi. I think for us. I realize that individuals are political. This is our form of resistance.

Now I'm interested in queer photos and queer photographers. I don't know how deep or how long it will last. When the end of the year and we no longer celebrate Stonewall's 50th anniversary as a news month, will the media still make room for us? Does the gallery still show our work? Will the audience who does not queer still be interested? Try this space

The work of the Dela Grace Volcano can be seen at Kiss My Genders in London's Hayward Gallery until September 8.

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Dela Grace Volcano

Born, born: Orange, California, 1957.

training: Master of Photography in San Francisco Art Institute and Photography Studies at Derby University.

effect : Angela Davis, Claude Kahun, James Baldwin, Lee Miller

Key Points: 'I met and sold a vintage hand-drawn print of one of my books, The Ceremony, to Lilly Wachowski, co-director of The Matrix. "

Low point: 'Rejected many times for art funding.'

Top tip: 'Sustainability pays.'



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